ok so last nite i blogged about my mom. and for some reason that really made me start thinking about my dad aka my sperm donor. ok no he was not like one of those guys who want to make money by jacking off into a tube and selling it to ladys that A. can get a guy to want to get them pregnant, B. think its best to raise a kid alone, C. the male in the relationship is sterile. nope that is not what my dad was. hes not nearly that cool and didnt make any money by donating his sperm to my mom.
you see him and my mom were togther in high school. a lovely couple. on drugs, that got into trouble, and well had me. my mom gave birth to me 4 months after turning 20. barely out of high school and definitly not ready for a kid. i guess neither of them were. because when i was 11 months old my dad decided to leave me and my mom. why you ask? good question. i really have no flippin idea. i have theorys. many of them. but the one that makes the most since to me was that it was too much for him. he had gotten himself into a situation he couldnt handle and left. and well perhaps loved drugs more then me. i honestly dont know.
and for most of my life my mother and my grandma say it has nothing to do with me. there is something wrong with him. well you know what is ironic about this? the fact that its my parents that are the ones with the problem not me.... my moms crazy and seems to hate me, but its not me, its her.... and my dad left me, but its not me, its him.
i guess i just dont get it. and as much as people tell me im not the one with the problem i cant help but to think maybe i am. maybe i cryed to much. maybe it was the fact that when i was a baby i smeered poop on the walls (yea embracing but oh well). i dont know what was wrong with me to drive him away.
the sad thing is though that i really know it wasnt my fault. i was a baby what could i do wrong i really didnt know any better. and i wasnt the only one he did this too. i have a little brother in some other state (my mom once told me he was in chicago) that my father was a sperm donor too as well, and who knows there could be more of us around this world just floatin around in complete confusion cuz our dad is a complete asshole!
i really hope that if i do have more brothers and sisters that their moms were able to find a good male father figure to be in their lifes so they dont have that empty "Wheres my dad?" feeling. because i know how that is. my mom tryed, uhhhh kinda, to finda a father figure for me. but every guy she picked was a complete fail. you see we have: abusive drugy, alcoholics, tweekers, and the creeps. there was one decent guy though that me and my little sister really liked, his name was Mike. and he was great. treated us good, took us fishing, watch cartoons with us, made us food. we really liked him alot, but sadly for us things didnt work out with him and my mom. why? maybe because he is too good for her.
dont get me wrong i love my moms current boyfriend as well. infact im wondering when hes gunna pop the question. really hope its soon. he treats her good as well and is good to me and my sister. hes family is really nice too. he has a good job, a house, and is all around a good guy.
but the thing is hes not MY dad. hes his sons dad. and i want my dad. and i want him to want me.
sometimes ill day dream about someone knocking on my door, or the phone ringing and it being him. then i could ask him all my question and we could start over. start a realationship and i wont feel so lost and confused. but i guess thats why they call it day dreaming! its only just a dream. either way its kinda fun to think about.
try to imagine who he mite be. a doctor? a vet? a target cashier? maybe a mail man? does he have a big house? or maybe an appartment? and a little dog named Scooter?
or most like a drugy? an alcoholic? abusive? a creeper? goes around knocking girls up and leaving? maybe even has like 12 kids now?
this is something i may never know. and it almost makes me feel like half of me is missing. like i know all the things i have gotten from my mom. my looks, my personality trait, i know which are from her. but which did i get from him. i have his hair my mom says. thanks dad!! for my awesome hard to manage curly insaine hair glad you could leave that when you decided to leave. really appreciating it. but what else do i have from him? i dont know.
every time i sit down and try to ask my mom questions she doesnt really tell me anything.
- he cussed alot.
- did drugs
- wasnt very nice
yea thats about as far as my knowledge of him goes. great.
i have tryed to find him on facebook, myspace, even yellowpages.com, but had no luck.
it sucks. i really feel for the kids in this world whos fathers, and even mothers have done this to as well. its not a very good feeling. abandoned. lost. confused. unwanted. mistreated. unfair. troubled. these are some of the things i feel.
maybe one day i can find him, and punch him in the face, then ask all the questions i need to ask. and after that if he still wants nothing to do with me then so be it!!! atleast i will have my answers. thats all i want is answers. i have lived this long without him im sure i can go on, i just want my answers dammit!!!
until next time,
XoXo BabyyGurl!!!
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Friday, January 6, 2012
Dear Mom:::
i find myself sitting here. missing you.
thinking about when i was a little girl.
how things were different. simpler.
when we were able to be together.
things were different back then.
easier. calmer. nicer. funner.
it almost seemed as if you loved me.
it was as if you cared about me.
as if you took an interest in me.
now look at us.
fighting, running, chasing.
playing mind games.
control. fear. anger.
its now as if you hate me.
you dont give a care about me.
as if all interest in me was lost.
what am i now? a lost cause?
why do you treat me this way?
what did i do wrong?
why do you seem to hate me?
i see other girls and there mom.
shopping. talking. laughing.
it makes me hate them.
i know its kinda dumb.
i get jelous.
want what they have.
it makes me so mad.
to think ill never have that.
why is that?
i dont understand.
its like we come from 2 different lands.
we speak 2 different languages.
its been this way for ages.
we always argue. never agree.
its real become to much for me.
we can be.
just like those girls i envy.
have a realationship.
everything i do wont make you trip.
the yelling will be gone.
we can stay up til dawn.
talking. sharing secrets.
maybe im just dreaming.
things will never be.
how i want them to be.
i guess im in denial.
that will always be final.
im so sorry for it all.
for why you are this way.
what ever happened on that day.
to make everything change.
to make your emotions such a range.
but its not fair for us kids.
to always have you pop your lid.
everything we do.
seems to make you unglue.
make you mad.
and make us sad.
we dont understand.
they try to explaine.
but its all just a game.
a game of blaim.
its always the same.
they tell us its not our fault.
that you have a problem.
a chemical embalance.
you needed meds, was that such a challenge?
did you ever think things could be different?
make your kids not always in a state of confusion?
i guess ill never understand.
and thats ok.
i guess ill just have to stay away.
until that day.you dont make me want to run away.
when im not afraid.
to say what i need to say.
you wont blow up at me.
for telling you something.
when i can trust you.
because thats something i want to do.
i want to be your friend.
and have our relationship mend.
have everything fixed.
not have our emotions mixed.
like scrambled eggs.
always have good days.
leave the past behind.
for the last time.
move on from the bad.
and have no more sad.
i know you tryed your best.
but where is the rest.
of your motherly insticts.
the missing links.
the ones that make us feel loved.
cared for, and charished.
instead we feel empty, lost, and forgotten.
love us. thats all were wantin.
for you to show you love us.
maybe you do.
i guess it could be true.
if it is.
you have a weird way of showing us.
yelling. screaming. maniplating.
its all so confusing.
last i checked that wasnt love.
it was abusing.
so you wonder why we are so emotional.
distraught. maybe sometimes even suicidal.
did you ever thing it has to do with you.
its the way you treat us. the things you do.
that put those thoughts in our head.
even though we dont want to be dead.
its all a game to you.
we are your kids we dont belong to you.
we're not a couch. not something you sit on.
by thinking that you are so wrong.
you cant always control us.
were not your puppets.
were human.
have feelin.
were not a rock.
more like a clock.
a ticking time bomb.
because of you mom.
you have created 2 monsters.
2 little wrongsters.
2 little girls in this world.
that only know how to cause trouble.
always on gaurd.
we have turnd this world into our back yard.
we been there done that.
were just a couple brats.
cant be told what to do.
we'll just rebel against you.
you did us so much wrong.
but because of it we are strong.
can take on anything.
and afterwards well be just fine.
we know who we are.
we have so many scares.
that make us the people we are.
2 bad girls with good intentions.
we have done somethings we shouldnt metion.
we have been treated wrong, and abused.
lied to, and used.
taken advantage of.
but we learn from our mistakes.
learn what it is that makes.
us unique from the rest.
life is just a test.
to see who is the best.
we have been through alot.
and inside we wont rot.
we'll fight through the bad.
and even the sad.
to find the good.
and we know you could.
if you try.
it wont make you die.
please mom we beg you.
to be throu.
with the hurt. anger. and betrayal.
we try to be loyal.
but its hard to be.
when you keep hurting me.
and savannah to.
we dont deserve this from you.
i guess you dont deserve it from us either.
but who do you think was our teacher?
yes that would be you.
why cant this all be through?
im done.
so until you are to.
im not going to talk to you.
i think its time.
i tell you goodbye.
as long as this is going on.
i think we need to go our seprete ways.
i have to do this. im sorry.
but maybe one day.
we can meet again.
maybe things will be different then.
we can talk. shop. and laugh.
goodbye mom.
i love you.
i really do.
but not the bad you.
the one i remember.
when i was a little girl.
what happened to her?
bring her back.
and and then we'll talk.
but for now this is the way it needs to be.
im so sorry.
XoXo BabyyGurl!!!
thinking about when i was a little girl.
how things were different. simpler.
when we were able to be together.
things were different back then.
easier. calmer. nicer. funner.
it almost seemed as if you loved me.
it was as if you cared about me.
as if you took an interest in me.
now look at us.
fighting, running, chasing.
playing mind games.
control. fear. anger.
its now as if you hate me.
you dont give a care about me.
as if all interest in me was lost.
what am i now? a lost cause?
why do you treat me this way?
what did i do wrong?
why do you seem to hate me?
i see other girls and there mom.
shopping. talking. laughing.
it makes me hate them.
i know its kinda dumb.
i get jelous.
want what they have.
it makes me so mad.
to think ill never have that.
why is that?
i dont understand.
its like we come from 2 different lands.
we speak 2 different languages.
its been this way for ages.
we always argue. never agree.
its real become to much for me.
we can be.
just like those girls i envy.
have a realationship.
everything i do wont make you trip.
the yelling will be gone.
we can stay up til dawn.
talking. sharing secrets.
maybe im just dreaming.
things will never be.
how i want them to be.
i guess im in denial.
that will always be final.
im so sorry for it all.
for why you are this way.
what ever happened on that day.
to make everything change.
to make your emotions such a range.
but its not fair for us kids.
to always have you pop your lid.
everything we do.
seems to make you unglue.
make you mad.
and make us sad.
we dont understand.
they try to explaine.
but its all just a game.
a game of blaim.
its always the same.
they tell us its not our fault.
that you have a problem.
a chemical embalance.
you needed meds, was that such a challenge?
did you ever think things could be different?
make your kids not always in a state of confusion?
i guess ill never understand.
and thats ok.
i guess ill just have to stay away.
until that day.you dont make me want to run away.
when im not afraid.
to say what i need to say.
you wont blow up at me.
for telling you something.
when i can trust you.
because thats something i want to do.
i want to be your friend.
and have our relationship mend.
have everything fixed.
not have our emotions mixed.
like scrambled eggs.
always have good days.
leave the past behind.
for the last time.
move on from the bad.
and have no more sad.
i know you tryed your best.
but where is the rest.
of your motherly insticts.
the missing links.
the ones that make us feel loved.
cared for, and charished.
instead we feel empty, lost, and forgotten.
love us. thats all were wantin.
for you to show you love us.
maybe you do.
i guess it could be true.
if it is.
you have a weird way of showing us.
yelling. screaming. maniplating.
its all so confusing.
last i checked that wasnt love.
it was abusing.
so you wonder why we are so emotional.
distraught. maybe sometimes even suicidal.
did you ever thing it has to do with you.
its the way you treat us. the things you do.
that put those thoughts in our head.
even though we dont want to be dead.
its all a game to you.
we are your kids we dont belong to you.
we're not a couch. not something you sit on.
by thinking that you are so wrong.
you cant always control us.
were not your puppets.
were human.
have feelin.
were not a rock.
more like a clock.
a ticking time bomb.
because of you mom.
you have created 2 monsters.
2 little wrongsters.
2 little girls in this world.
that only know how to cause trouble.
always on gaurd.
we have turnd this world into our back yard.
we been there done that.
were just a couple brats.
cant be told what to do.
we'll just rebel against you.
you did us so much wrong.
but because of it we are strong.
can take on anything.
and afterwards well be just fine.
we know who we are.
we have so many scares.
that make us the people we are.
2 bad girls with good intentions.
we have done somethings we shouldnt metion.
we have been treated wrong, and abused.
lied to, and used.
taken advantage of.
but we learn from our mistakes.
learn what it is that makes.
us unique from the rest.
life is just a test.
to see who is the best.
we have been through alot.
and inside we wont rot.
we'll fight through the bad.
and even the sad.
to find the good.
and we know you could.
if you try.
it wont make you die.
please mom we beg you.
to be throu.
with the hurt. anger. and betrayal.
we try to be loyal.
but its hard to be.
when you keep hurting me.
and savannah to.
we dont deserve this from you.
i guess you dont deserve it from us either.
but who do you think was our teacher?
yes that would be you.
why cant this all be through?
im done.
so until you are to.
im not going to talk to you.
i think its time.
i tell you goodbye.
as long as this is going on.
i think we need to go our seprete ways.
i have to do this. im sorry.
but maybe one day.
we can meet again.
maybe things will be different then.
we can talk. shop. and laugh.
goodbye mom.
i love you.
i really do.
but not the bad you.
the one i remember.
when i was a little girl.
what happened to her?
bring her back.
and and then we'll talk.
but for now this is the way it needs to be.
im so sorry.
XoXo BabyyGurl!!!
Mall With Sierra!!!!!
so i have this friend. her name is Sierra. she is one of my best friends. i have known her for about 8 years now so a long time. she is a very good girl and a great friend. she has always been there for me and put up with my stupidity.
so on January 4th 2012 this is the wonderfully fun, exciting, confusing, awesome day i had with my Sierra.
well we went to the mall around 3:30pm. i was at Petsmart with Boss when she got there so she came to Petsmart. we walked around with Boss and let him play with toys. it was alot of fun. Sierra bought him 2 lil treats to eat, which he loved!!!!
when we got bored at Petsmart we walked over to Khols to see if she could find a shirt for her friend Destiny. but we had no luck. what we did have luck at was being super ninja and sneaking Boss into Khols. they didnt notice i had him in there until we were leaving. haha yea were super ninja like that!!!!
while we were in the parking lot we put Boss in a shopping cart and took pictures. some old people laughed at us. but im sure if i saw 2 girls putting a 50 pound pitbull in a shopping cart i would laugh also. but he looked so cute in the shopping cart and stayed in there pretty well until i started to move the cart. that is when he jumped out. what i really wanted to do was push him into the store in the cart. people do it with little dogs and are never told to leave so why cant i do it with my big dog??? well unfortunately he didnt want to stay in the cart so i never got to finds out if it would work. : (
when didnt find anything at Khols we walked over to Barnes & noble(yes sierra i did have to google how to spell this) where we drank StarBucks, played on the internet and hung out. Sierra made fun of me because i couldnt spell Barnes & noble, but you know what i dont care. most things have a spell check and thats good for me and my lack of spelling skills. haha.
so while i was on Facebook my friend Josh messaged me and asked what i was doing. i told him i was chillin at Barnes & noble with Sierra. then we had a small conversation before he had to get off.
at one point during our being at Barnes & Noble sierra found one of those little papers that you have to send in to subscribe to a magazine. and it was rather interesting. it was of a naked girl with lots of tatoos and one of those tatoos were of guns on her pelvis pointing down. When Sierra saw it she said "why does this girl have gun tatoos pointing to her pussy?" and the old man sitting next to us said something like " ok could you keep it down?" or something like that. so we were like wtf dude, Rude!!! hahah but now i think maybe we were being the rude ones. oh well. im a loud and blunt person. Sierra can be sometimes too. we are teenage girls and we cant help it.
so after a while my friend Josh showed up at Barnes & Noble. me and sierra were sitting in the back against a window when i saw a guys shows in frount of me and Sierra said "Hi can i help you?" so i looked up and it was Josh. so i was like "Oh well hello there!" and he said he stopped by to say hi cuz him and his sister were bored. then he saw another friend outside and went out there, Sierra thinks he is stalking me now haha.
then we went back over to the mall to say hi to her sister who works in the pretzle place. we went out back with her so she could smoke a cigerette. sierra told her sister not to tell their mom she was hanging out with me because her mom would be mad. she thinks i am a bad influence on sierra. maybe i was before but im not now. i dont ever do anything bad anymore, haha. plus sierras to much of a good girl to be influenced, she knows right from wrong.
we sat out there nad talked to her sister for a while, then sierras mom came out(she also works at the mall) and saw us together. we both looked at each other like "oh shiit!!!" but her mom didnt seem to up set. she just told sierra to be back in her work at 8:45pm. then went back inside. then her sister had to go back into work. so we sat outside for a little bit talking to a girl her sister worked with, then we went back to the Pretzle Place to get a pretzle. and i realized i had left my phone outside where we were sitting so we had to go back and get it. luckily it was still there unharmed, un touched!!! when we were walking out there we used the back doors that only mall employees are suppost to use but we think we are special and can use them to. i mean both our parents have worked at the mall since we were little and we always used these doors, so what would stop us from doing it now. well one of the mall maintenance people saw us and told us not to do it again. that was the first time either of us had had someone tell us not to do that. it was crazy!
Sierra decided she needed to go get Boss a canned food so he wouldnt starve to death. so we made our way back over to Petsmart where she got him some food and a raw hide bone. she is wayyyyyyy to nice. haha. she completely spoiled my puppy!!! but oh well he didnt seem to mind.
while we were in Petsmart i saw my old neighbor who has a georgous brindle Pitbul named Chomper. he is really cute and big now.
i also saw my uncle and talked to him for a little while about what was going on. during this time sierras mom called her 5 times. so we had to go back over to the mall. we went to Sears and sierra called her mom. while we were there a guy started to go across the street to Petsmart with a cart. one of the guys that worked at Sears was standing outside and started yelling at him because he was stealing a cart from Sears. so he ran towards him yelling "Hey bring that back, Why are you stealing my cart!!!" when the cart stealer had gotten across the street he turned around and started walking towards the guy that worked at Sears saying "What? Are you talking shit to me?!!!?" and crossed the street to get in the guys face. and yelled "its a Petsmart cart. it belongs there" when they both got closer to me and sierra we realized that the cart stealer had a Sears name tag on and worked there. but it was still exciting to watch. i just wish it turned into a big fight. would have been a lot funner to watch but whatever!
Sierra had to go back to her moms work because it was time for the mall to close. it was not fun having to say good bye. : ( i had missed her alot. but we shall see each other again one day.
after we said good bye i called my grandma and asked her if i could stay the night at her house since she lives like a quarter of a mile from the mall. after i got her ok i walked to her house.
i had a lot of fun on my adventure with sierra. lots of new memories and what not. good times good times. hopefully soon we can have another mall dad and cause even more memories to remember. because i love good memories, they make life interesting and fun!!!!
XoXo BabyyGurl!!!
so on January 4th 2012 this is the wonderfully fun, exciting, confusing, awesome day i had with my Sierra.
well we went to the mall around 3:30pm. i was at Petsmart with Boss when she got there so she came to Petsmart. we walked around with Boss and let him play with toys. it was alot of fun. Sierra bought him 2 lil treats to eat, which he loved!!!!
when we got bored at Petsmart we walked over to Khols to see if she could find a shirt for her friend Destiny. but we had no luck. what we did have luck at was being super ninja and sneaking Boss into Khols. they didnt notice i had him in there until we were leaving. haha yea were super ninja like that!!!!
while we were in the parking lot we put Boss in a shopping cart and took pictures. some old people laughed at us. but im sure if i saw 2 girls putting a 50 pound pitbull in a shopping cart i would laugh also. but he looked so cute in the shopping cart and stayed in there pretty well until i started to move the cart. that is when he jumped out. what i really wanted to do was push him into the store in the cart. people do it with little dogs and are never told to leave so why cant i do it with my big dog??? well unfortunately he didnt want to stay in the cart so i never got to finds out if it would work. : ( when didnt find anything at Khols we walked over to Barnes & noble(yes sierra i did have to google how to spell this) where we drank StarBucks, played on the internet and hung out. Sierra made fun of me because i couldnt spell Barnes & noble, but you know what i dont care. most things have a spell check and thats good for me and my lack of spelling skills. haha.
so while i was on Facebook my friend Josh messaged me and asked what i was doing. i told him i was chillin at Barnes & noble with Sierra. then we had a small conversation before he had to get off.
at one point during our being at Barnes & Noble sierra found one of those little papers that you have to send in to subscribe to a magazine. and it was rather interesting. it was of a naked girl with lots of tatoos and one of those tatoos were of guns on her pelvis pointing down. When Sierra saw it she said "why does this girl have gun tatoos pointing to her pussy?" and the old man sitting next to us said something like " ok could you keep it down?" or something like that. so we were like wtf dude, Rude!!! hahah but now i think maybe we were being the rude ones. oh well. im a loud and blunt person. Sierra can be sometimes too. we are teenage girls and we cant help it.
so after a while my friend Josh showed up at Barnes & Noble. me and sierra were sitting in the back against a window when i saw a guys shows in frount of me and Sierra said "Hi can i help you?" so i looked up and it was Josh. so i was like "Oh well hello there!" and he said he stopped by to say hi cuz him and his sister were bored. then he saw another friend outside and went out there, Sierra thinks he is stalking me now haha.
then we went back over to the mall to say hi to her sister who works in the pretzle place. we went out back with her so she could smoke a cigerette. sierra told her sister not to tell their mom she was hanging out with me because her mom would be mad. she thinks i am a bad influence on sierra. maybe i was before but im not now. i dont ever do anything bad anymore, haha. plus sierras to much of a good girl to be influenced, she knows right from wrong.
we sat out there nad talked to her sister for a while, then sierras mom came out(she also works at the mall) and saw us together. we both looked at each other like "oh shiit!!!" but her mom didnt seem to up set. she just told sierra to be back in her work at 8:45pm. then went back inside. then her sister had to go back into work. so we sat outside for a little bit talking to a girl her sister worked with, then we went back to the Pretzle Place to get a pretzle. and i realized i had left my phone outside where we were sitting so we had to go back and get it. luckily it was still there unharmed, un touched!!! when we were walking out there we used the back doors that only mall employees are suppost to use but we think we are special and can use them to. i mean both our parents have worked at the mall since we were little and we always used these doors, so what would stop us from doing it now. well one of the mall maintenance people saw us and told us not to do it again. that was the first time either of us had had someone tell us not to do that. it was crazy!
Sierra decided she needed to go get Boss a canned food so he wouldnt starve to death. so we made our way back over to Petsmart where she got him some food and a raw hide bone. she is wayyyyyyy to nice. haha. she completely spoiled my puppy!!! but oh well he didnt seem to mind.
while we were in Petsmart i saw my old neighbor who has a georgous brindle Pitbul named Chomper. he is really cute and big now.
i also saw my uncle and talked to him for a little while about what was going on. during this time sierras mom called her 5 times. so we had to go back over to the mall. we went to Sears and sierra called her mom. while we were there a guy started to go across the street to Petsmart with a cart. one of the guys that worked at Sears was standing outside and started yelling at him because he was stealing a cart from Sears. so he ran towards him yelling "Hey bring that back, Why are you stealing my cart!!!" when the cart stealer had gotten across the street he turned around and started walking towards the guy that worked at Sears saying "What? Are you talking shit to me?!!!?" and crossed the street to get in the guys face. and yelled "its a Petsmart cart. it belongs there" when they both got closer to me and sierra we realized that the cart stealer had a Sears name tag on and worked there. but it was still exciting to watch. i just wish it turned into a big fight. would have been a lot funner to watch but whatever!
Sierra had to go back to her moms work because it was time for the mall to close. it was not fun having to say good bye. : ( i had missed her alot. but we shall see each other again one day.
after we said good bye i called my grandma and asked her if i could stay the night at her house since she lives like a quarter of a mile from the mall. after i got her ok i walked to her house.
i had a lot of fun on my adventure with sierra. lots of new memories and what not. good times good times. hopefully soon we can have another mall dad and cause even more memories to remember. because i love good memories, they make life interesting and fun!!!!
XoXo BabyyGurl!!!
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Got lil Boss back AGAIN!!!
After we told my mom we had found Boss and brought him home she was pissed. she freaked out and said "i never gave you permission to have this dog here!!!!" when the day before i had told her when i found that dog i was bringing him to savannah and she said ok.
well now it wasnt ok??? shes so bipolar!!!!!
so it caused a fight between me and my mom and that hole night was crappy. she kept screeming and yelling at my and my sister. telling me to take the dog back and me refusing. she had my sister down on the floor cornered screaming in her face and my sister was crying histarically. i told my mom not to talk to her like that nad she flipped out on me. then told me to get out of her house before she called the cops. so i reached for the door knob and she hit my hand away from it and pushed me against the wall. then she punched my arm, leaving a red mark. so i ran out of the house yelling "im calling the cops" so i did nad they sent two officers to the house. after i told them what had happened the tryed talking to my mom but she did not answer her door. so the officer told me it would be best if i went to a friends for the night and came back in the morning for my belongings. so i got one of my dogs, Romeo, and a bag of clothes and went to my friend Harmonys.
my mom and my sister went to the town where my moms boyfriend lives for a few days. and left Boss in the garage. my mom had also called animal control to come and pick him up in the morning.
so the next morning i got up early enough(i thought) to go get him before animal control. but when i got to my moms house the garage door was locked. so i banged on the windows. and heard no barking. so i called my sister and told her that the dog was not in there. she found out animal control had come and got him.
we were completely devastated. once again we had lost this little puppy (who is now 6 months old). we knew we had to go get him from the pound. he was most likely going to be put down or adopted to the wrong kind of people. so i got a ride out to Haven Humane to go get him.
i filled out a lost animal report and then went back to the kennels. i ran through the hall ways of the cages yelling "Boss, Boss" but i didnt see him anywhere and got really sad. so i started walking back up frount. when i passed by the quarentine kennels i heard a really depressing whine. i turned around to see what dog it was, and there was my little Boss!!! i ran up to the kennel and pet him through the fence. he was so excited he was jumping around and barking. so i told him i would get him out. then looked at his kennel number, 38, and ran up front.
after i told the receptionist his kennel number i had to fill out paper work like release papers and a fee for not having him registered! ugh! then they brought him out. he pulled the guy trying to get to me. so i put him in the car and brought him over to my friend harmonys house.
but we had a problem! her dog did not like him! so i had to put both my dogs in the empty apartment next door. which they didnt like very much. and i slept in there with them also.
but the next day we got Boss and my friends dog Khaos(who is actually Bosses real aunt) to be friends, so me Romeo(my other pitbull), and Boss are staying with my friend until Savannah(my sister) can convince my mom to let her keep Boss.
but he is truely a wonderful and smart dog. that eats ALOT!!!
but atleast we were able to get our little Boss back AGAIN!!!!
and today he was given his booster shots, Rabies, and is even microChiped! just incase Brandon gets out of jail and decides to try to steal him again i can prove that he is my dog! then we wont have to go hunt him down again!!!
XoXo BabyyGurl!!!
well now it wasnt ok??? shes so bipolar!!!!!
so it caused a fight between me and my mom and that hole night was crappy. she kept screeming and yelling at my and my sister. telling me to take the dog back and me refusing. she had my sister down on the floor cornered screaming in her face and my sister was crying histarically. i told my mom not to talk to her like that nad she flipped out on me. then told me to get out of her house before she called the cops. so i reached for the door knob and she hit my hand away from it and pushed me against the wall. then she punched my arm, leaving a red mark. so i ran out of the house yelling "im calling the cops" so i did nad they sent two officers to the house. after i told them what had happened the tryed talking to my mom but she did not answer her door. so the officer told me it would be best if i went to a friends for the night and came back in the morning for my belongings. so i got one of my dogs, Romeo, and a bag of clothes and went to my friend Harmonys.
my mom and my sister went to the town where my moms boyfriend lives for a few days. and left Boss in the garage. my mom had also called animal control to come and pick him up in the morning.
so the next morning i got up early enough(i thought) to go get him before animal control. but when i got to my moms house the garage door was locked. so i banged on the windows. and heard no barking. so i called my sister and told her that the dog was not in there. she found out animal control had come and got him.
we were completely devastated. once again we had lost this little puppy (who is now 6 months old). we knew we had to go get him from the pound. he was most likely going to be put down or adopted to the wrong kind of people. so i got a ride out to Haven Humane to go get him.
i filled out a lost animal report and then went back to the kennels. i ran through the hall ways of the cages yelling "Boss, Boss" but i didnt see him anywhere and got really sad. so i started walking back up frount. when i passed by the quarentine kennels i heard a really depressing whine. i turned around to see what dog it was, and there was my little Boss!!! i ran up to the kennel and pet him through the fence. he was so excited he was jumping around and barking. so i told him i would get him out. then looked at his kennel number, 38, and ran up front.
after i told the receptionist his kennel number i had to fill out paper work like release papers and a fee for not having him registered! ugh! then they brought him out. he pulled the guy trying to get to me. so i put him in the car and brought him over to my friend harmonys house.
but we had a problem! her dog did not like him! so i had to put both my dogs in the empty apartment next door. which they didnt like very much. and i slept in there with them also.
but the next day we got Boss and my friends dog Khaos(who is actually Bosses real aunt) to be friends, so me Romeo(my other pitbull), and Boss are staying with my friend until Savannah(my sister) can convince my mom to let her keep Boss.
but he is truely a wonderful and smart dog. that eats ALOT!!!
but atleast we were able to get our little Boss back AGAIN!!!!
and today he was given his booster shots, Rabies, and is even microChiped! just incase Brandon gets out of jail and decides to try to steal him again i can prove that he is my dog! then we wont have to go hunt him down again!!!
XoXo BabyyGurl!!!
Got lil Boss back!!!
So about 6 months ago my little sister savannah got a puppy from my friends neighbor. his dog had 16 puppies and he was selling them for $100 each. well my sister had told him she would pay him in a week when she got the money and took a puppy. this puppy was only 4 weeks old when she got him. and the cutest little thing ever!!!
he was a little turd though. always hungry and wanting to eat. so we always had to have a container of wet food with us.
but he very quickly became a member of our family. at the time we got him my sister and i were homeless. wandering the streets by day and sleeping where ever we found it safe by night. we had 4 dogs. Boss the new puppy. Romeo my pitbul- Great dane cross. Tora my sisters Whippet- plot hound mix. and Journee my Black lab - catahula leopard dog mix. it was a lot of dogs but we managed to make it work. alot of people asked how we fed them. it was simple, the dogs ate before we did. and there are alot of places that help the homeless and their pets in our town. we figured that out really quickly.
so after about three weeks after we got this puppy i went to the bay area and left my sister in redding. (big mistake). she ended up staying with her boyfriend (the 19 year old creep). well during this time Boss got parvo. he wasnt doing to well for a while but pulled through!!! my sister would not leave his side for the week that he was sick. she force fed him and took care of him.
then on October 8th 2011 my sister and her boyfriend were arrested. he was taken to jail and given a book and realese. my sister was locked up for almost 2 months. during this time my sisters boyfriend had the dog. i asked for him back many times but he refused. i thought about taking him to court to get my dog back but i really had no way to prove he was mine. so i had to fight with him for 2 months and had no luck. then when my sister got out we fought with him for another month. but still had no luck getting our lil dawgy back.
then on December 29th 2011 my sisters now ex boyfriend was once again arrested because he violated the terms of his bail and missed a court date. so he was put into jail. my sister and i freaked out wondering where our little boss might be. the pound? on the streets? dead? we really didnt know. so my mom was goingto take us to Haven Humane to see if he was there. but changed her mind because she is very bipolar.
this made my sister have a panic attack. so i called my grandma and asked her if she could take me to the pound to see if he was there but she said no. so i tryed calling the pound and asking if he was there. but the lady told me there were multiple Red-Nose Pitbulls and i would have to go there to find him.
this made me very frusterated. so i called the police department and asked to speak with the arresting officer of Brandon (my sister boyfriend) but he was not in the office. so i asked the lady i was speaking to if it said anything about the dog in the police report. it did not. but she was able to give me the address of where he was arrested and said i could try there.
so i walked to the address which happened to be an appartment complex and thought "well shit now i have 30 doors he could be behind." it was going to be like one of those tv shows where you have to pick the door that the prise is behind only way harder. so i was about to get up and knock on door #1 but a guy walked up to me and asked if i had a ciggerette. i said no and asked him if he knew Brandon, HE DID!!!!!! at this point i thought wow what a miracle. and to make everything even better he knew where Boss was. so he took me to his appartment and let me take Boss. i had to tell a little white lie and say that i was Brandons girlfriend and he sent me to get the dog, but oh well sometimes, such as now, its necissary.
so on my walk back home i called my sister and told her the war was over. we won and got Boss back!!! she was so excited she started screaming. when i got him to the house my sister and the dog were jumping all over each other and were both very happy. my little sister finally had the spark back in her eyes and i could tell she was happy!
we were so glad to have him back. but then......
Got Lil Boss back AGAIN!!!!!
XoXo BabyyGurl!!!
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| Lil Boss at only 4 weeks!!! |
but he very quickly became a member of our family. at the time we got him my sister and i were homeless. wandering the streets by day and sleeping where ever we found it safe by night. we had 4 dogs. Boss the new puppy. Romeo my pitbul- Great dane cross. Tora my sisters Whippet- plot hound mix. and Journee my Black lab - catahula leopard dog mix. it was a lot of dogs but we managed to make it work. alot of people asked how we fed them. it was simple, the dogs ate before we did. and there are alot of places that help the homeless and their pets in our town. we figured that out really quickly.so after about three weeks after we got this puppy i went to the bay area and left my sister in redding. (big mistake). she ended up staying with her boyfriend (the 19 year old creep). well during this time Boss got parvo. he wasnt doing to well for a while but pulled through!!! my sister would not leave his side for the week that he was sick. she force fed him and took care of him.
then on October 8th 2011 my sister and her boyfriend were arrested. he was taken to jail and given a book and realese. my sister was locked up for almost 2 months. during this time my sisters boyfriend had the dog. i asked for him back many times but he refused. i thought about taking him to court to get my dog back but i really had no way to prove he was mine. so i had to fight with him for 2 months and had no luck. then when my sister got out we fought with him for another month. but still had no luck getting our lil dawgy back.
then on December 29th 2011 my sisters now ex boyfriend was once again arrested because he violated the terms of his bail and missed a court date. so he was put into jail. my sister and i freaked out wondering where our little boss might be. the pound? on the streets? dead? we really didnt know. so my mom was goingto take us to Haven Humane to see if he was there. but changed her mind because she is very bipolar.
this made my sister have a panic attack. so i called my grandma and asked her if she could take me to the pound to see if he was there but she said no. so i tryed calling the pound and asking if he was there. but the lady told me there were multiple Red-Nose Pitbulls and i would have to go there to find him.
this made me very frusterated. so i called the police department and asked to speak with the arresting officer of Brandon (my sister boyfriend) but he was not in the office. so i asked the lady i was speaking to if it said anything about the dog in the police report. it did not. but she was able to give me the address of where he was arrested and said i could try there.
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| this is Boss at 6 months. yes he is ALOT bigger |
so on my walk back home i called my sister and told her the war was over. we won and got Boss back!!! she was so excited she started screaming. when i got him to the house my sister and the dog were jumping all over each other and were both very happy. my little sister finally had the spark back in her eyes and i could tell she was happy!
we were so glad to have him back. but then......
Got Lil Boss back AGAIN!!!!!
XoXo BabyyGurl!!!
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