My Jonny

well i have decided to write a blog about my amazing boyfriend. im going to try to prove everyone who thinks badly of him wrong. because um yea your wrong... so you can just sit there in your bubble or wrongness and be completely wrong.

ok first yes i will admit he has done so pretty flat out completely stupid stuff. its true we all know it. but that does not define who he is. we have all done things in our lifes we are not proud of. we are human and humans make mistakes. we make them and learn from them. and alot of people say to me, jonny doesnt learn from his mistake. uh yea your wrong again. yes he does. trust me he does.

now let me tell you about the Jonny i know. this Jonny is amazing.

he is the most caring person i know. he loves his family to dead. his little brother Christian means the world to him and more, hes always talking about him and how good christian is and how far hes going to go in life. how smart he is, and just how much he loves him. he want to do good for christian to show him he can be a good older brother. he wants christian to be a good kid and stay out of trouble. every letter i get asks about christian and how he is doing. if i have heard from him or have seen him lately. EVERY LETTER!!!!!!

and his dad gibson. he knows he has hurt gibson alot and is really sorry for it. he loves gibson alot also, but gets frusterated with him for reason i really am not going to put on here. but kinda good reasons. but still he cares so much about gibson and doesnt want anything bad to happen to him. i get asked alot about him in letters as well. the sad thing is i really dont know how he is doing because i have not talked to him in about like 6-7 months. it has been a while.

and his little sister charlotte. hes really scared for her. shes starting to get into trouble and that worries him. he doesnt want her to turn about like he did. and he is afraid its to late. he was so happy when i told him i saw her, but now that i havent heard from her in a while as well that kinda worries him.

now his mom and Aiden. where do i start. well he wants everything with his mom to be ok. infact he want to try and live with her. he talks about her alot and how much he loves her. she really means so much to him its crazy. but i think it is really cute.

Jonny loves his family. all of them. as confusing and as disfuncional as it all may be, he doesnt care, he loves all of them. hes just a very loving and caring person.

he has some really good friends as well. i have met alot of his friends and some of them i really like and others i dont. and no im not being a crazy jealous girlfriend. its just some of them i can see are going to be good for him and keep him up in life and then there are the ones who are just going to drag him down. the ones that are good for him to be around are ones he has known for quite a while. and they do not support his bad habits really. i mean yea they have gotten into some trouble together, but most friends have. but they are also good for him. these friends are there for me when i need them and who do anything for me only because i am Jonnys girlfriend and they know if im safe and ok when he gets out then he will be ok.
his Best Friend John Gilliland died not to long ago. and having to tell him this while he was in prison was really hard. i probably wrote how to tell him like 50 times trying  to figure out the best way to tell him, but no matter how i said it, it just didnt seem good enough. so i just flat out straight out told him. i had to. he needed to know. and it hurt him ALOT... it really did. he misses him so much. and i dont blame him, john was a great guy and anyone who knows him will agree.


ok now jonny treats me like a motha fuckin princess!!!!! its true. it really is. yea some times he can be a complete asshole nad i wanna slap the shit outta him, but im a complete bitch ta him also. but really when it comes down to it he treats me like a princess. or better if that is possible. i get annoyed sometimes with how much he tells me im beautiful and how lucky he is to have a girl like me even think about being with him.
he has always but up with my bitchy complaining about all the crap in my life that pisses me off n junk n not once said "Bitch just shut the fuck up and deal with it!" instead he just sits there with this smile on his face like "Daymn bitch your fuckin crazy, but so adorable so ill listen to this shit"

he loves my little sister as if she were her sister, infact they call each other brother n sister. he gets so mad every time i tell him she did something bad again. he knows how much stress it all put on me and wants to help. yea he did make a really bad mistake with her, but im not to mad about it anymore, althought it will never be fully forgotten or forgiven. and he knows that is part of the reason why she got into so much trouble. but he still cares for her so much and when it comes down to it would do anything he needed to for her. hed go kick some ass if he had to. and has. haha.

he is simply put. misunderstood. people only look at the things he has done wrong in his life and dont see all of the good. when really he is a great person. i think so. he has really made my life so much better. im way happier now because of him and i know what love is. he really has changed my life for the better.

i miss him so much now that he is gone. : ( but he will be back sooner then i realize : )   and everything will be good from then on!  but for now our realationship consists of words on paper. but those words on paper are what keep me going each day. they make my life so much better and happier. i look forward to his letter more then anything.


when he gets out i swear im going to be the happiest person alive. you dont even know. i litterally have dreams about this day. but fer now i must focus on everything but him getting out so that time goes by quicker. so i should probably stop writting now and maybe go to bed cuz its like almost 5am!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh



well goodnight my lovelys!!!

XoXo BabyyGurl!!!