2 years so far

so today is me and my boyfriends 2 year anniversary. yep we have have been together that long. its kind of crazy because  none of my other relationships lasted anywhere near this long the were anywhere from a week to 3 months. so to be with the same guy for this long is absolutely crazy. but i like it. it makes me happy to be with him. hes so kind and caring whether he wants to admit it or not. he thinks hes a terrible monster and hes used these exact words but underneath that touch shell and behind all the walls he puts up is a sweet and gentle guy. who knows how to make me feel so loved and cared for its crazy. he soft and cuddly kinda like a big teddy bear. the way that he looks at me i can see how much he loves me in his beautiful eyes.
     i will admit we do have some problems in our relationship but we are working through those to try and make our relationship even better. we have been through a lot together and it just shows how meant to be we are for each other.
     i don't know what i would do with out him. he makes my life so much better and happy that with out him it would almost seem impossible. i don't ever think that i would have to go without him tho.with everything that we have been through together that hasn't torn us apart i don't know what will.
      when i think about our future in 5 years i see us married and living in either a little house or an apartment with a kid and a dog. well be happy with our little family and just starting our lives on our own together. we'll both have jobs doing something that we enjoy and well have lots of time to spend with each other and our kid. well be a happy little family doing happy family things. and our love will continue to grow even stronger. yea that sounds like a fairytale to me.

well i hope y'all find your fairytale endings,
X0X0 BabyyGurl!!!

Oh Those Boys!

Well Hello there!

so i have made some new friends! they are quite an interesting group. very entertaining and fun. they are Tanner, Steven, Waffle, and Gerb.

they live in the appartment complex across from my aunt neena. they are always hyper and up to do anything fun. like drive up to the top of the world in the middle of the night. or drive anywhere for that matter. nd they love to party. i guess they are just what i needed to get me out of my miniture depression. they always put me in a good mood. they are always saying the funniest shit and doing the funniest things. its hard to be in a bad mood around these guys. they make everything so much more exciting.

i have only known them for a week so far but in we have all hung out pretty much every day of this week and done some pretty crazy stuff. it has been one of the funnest weeks i have had in a while.

go out and meet someone new my dears,
XoXo Babyygurl!!!

Fear Factor!!!

im sitting here with my cuzin Tristen watching Fear Factor! they are currently eatting scorpions. i cant imagine what that must be like. to feel them inside your mouth squirming around and stinging you. the gross taste of their blood ang guts surrounding your mouth. ewww gross!!!! icky icky no no!!!
my cuzin is freaking out with how gross it is. eatting those little creatures. its quit entertaining.

earlier we watched one where they had to drink coffee with either, flys, tomato worms, or stink bugs, and sour milk. it was so gross. i dont even want to think about what it would be like to have to drink that. i would think that the flys would be the easiest because they were dead so they couldnt fly away. they would be easiest because they wouldnt be squirming around. the tomato bugs would be the worst because they are so big and gross. plus i can just imagine the noise and the feeling of biting into these gross little bigs, the queeck!!! it would be terrible. the stink bugs would be really gross also because they would be crunch and smelly. ewwww!!!!!

another episode we watched they had to search in a pool of cows blood and find cow hearts. then they took turns using theyre mouths to throw the hearts into a bucket about 2 feet away from the pool. it looked so cross. a big pool of cows blood. ewww!!!! like a crime scene. and thinking about having a cows heart in your mouth is pretty gross also. not as gross as the other two things i dont think but thats only because i have a massive fear of bugs! expecially spiders!!!!

if i ever had to do anything like that with spiders i think i would cry and scream. maybe have a heart attack and die!!! i hate those little 8 legged creatures! with like 200 eyes that all stare at you! and it seems like every time i find one in my house or where ever they chase me and stare at me. i get all grossed out and feel like they are crawling on me! i dont like touching the ground and jump up on the nearest thing tpo me. thinking this will keep the thing away, but in all reality they climb. i start screaming and throwing things which make the thing move even more and makes my screaming even worse. usually someone will get a shoe or something and squish it. but even then i dont like going near the area it was and think that more are going to come out of everywhere and try to kill me.  they are the worst things in the world!!! i will never like them and never want anything to do with them.
i have a feeling that if i were to actually make it onto Fear Factor one day i would have to do something with spiders. maybe lay in a pool with them crawling around on me. ok i need to stop thinking about this because now i am starting to get all freaked out! ewww!!!

so pretty much Fear Factor is the craziest show in the world. crazyy crazzy stuff man!!! and the people that actually go on there is even crazier!!! why would they do that! and only for $50,000 its rediculous! id want atleast $100,000! maybe that would do it. i dont know. not if it was spiders though. nope nope nope! im good thank you and have a nice day. you can find someone else to participate in your games you wanna be Jig Saw!

well im going to stop blogging about this now before i gross myself out so much i dont want to eat any dinner.

live on my Loves

XoXo BabyyGurl!!!