2 years so far

so today is me and my boyfriends 2 year anniversary. yep we have have been together that long. its kind of crazy because  none of my other relationships lasted anywhere near this long the were anywhere from a week to 3 months. so to be with the same guy for this long is absolutely crazy. but i like it. it makes me happy to be with him. hes so kind and caring whether he wants to admit it or not. he thinks hes a terrible monster and hes used these exact words but underneath that touch shell and behind all the walls he puts up is a sweet and gentle guy. who knows how to make me feel so loved and cared for its crazy. he soft and cuddly kinda like a big teddy bear. the way that he looks at me i can see how much he loves me in his beautiful eyes.
     i will admit we do have some problems in our relationship but we are working through those to try and make our relationship even better. we have been through a lot together and it just shows how meant to be we are for each other.
     i don't know what i would do with out him. he makes my life so much better and happy that with out him it would almost seem impossible. i don't ever think that i would have to go without him tho.with everything that we have been through together that hasn't torn us apart i don't know what will.
      when i think about our future in 5 years i see us married and living in either a little house or an apartment with a kid and a dog. well be happy with our little family and just starting our lives on our own together. we'll both have jobs doing something that we enjoy and well have lots of time to spend with each other and our kid. well be a happy little family doing happy family things. and our love will continue to grow even stronger. yea that sounds like a fairytale to me.

well i hope y'all find your fairytale endings,
X0X0 BabyyGurl!!!

Boyfriend was released!!!

So after waking up at about 5pm today and going though my mass amounts of texts i listened to the 6 voicemail messages i had. 1 from grandma, 1 from a friend, and then the next 4 from my boyfriend jonny saying he was home. He was released from prison at 2am that morning and took a bus home. so after wakin up a little bit i walked over to where he was. i will adimit i was trippin a little bit and hella nerves. it had been 10 months since i had actually seen him. it was crazy i didnt know what to think or how to feel. i was so excited though.
      as soon as i got there and sat down next to him it was like the 10 months had never passed. it was just any other day. i was all the same and that was good. i felt so much relief and happiness i thought i was going to explode. it was one of the crazyest feelings ever. completely unexplainable.
      We hung out at his house for a little bit with his stepdad, little brother, and his stepdads friends. we all just sat around talking. i relized at that moment how much i had missed these people. its great to have them back now. it was even good seeing jonnys little brother christians cat Bear. he has gotten sooooo much fatter.

After hanging out with his family we went by my moms house to get my dog. she wasnt going to let me do that and got me all upset. so i got into a fight with her because she was saying she was going to give my dog away when i dont even live with her. she also said that i abuse him, neglect him, and mistreat him. non of that is true. after fighting with her for a good half an hour Jonny made me leave and we went over to my aunts empty apartment. we talked about a lot of stuff and just got to be alone for a while. it was great. 

      Jonny says he is done being a criminal. Prison taught him a lesson. i believe him, atleast i want to believe him. i know he can be good if he wants to he just has to want to. i have faith in him and im going to do everything i can to make sure that he is good and doesnt go back to prison. but that is really up to him.

Be good my loves,
X0X0 BabyyGurl!!!